You know what I was doing three years ago? I brought my baby home.
After 21 days in the hospital, one MRI, one Open Heart Surgery, incision, stitches, wound care, two feeding tubes and then only one, intubated for 10 days, more "pokies" then anyone can count, oxygen tanks, nasal cannulas, tender grips, pulse ox, feeding pump, feeding bags, syringes, meds, feeding schedule, high cal formula and the recipe, stethoscope, miles of tubing.
And tonight I sit with anxiety about his appointment tomorrow. I do not expect any surprises. He is doing so good. About 5 days ago I was really emotional, and sensitive. I though it was just the holiday, lack of sleep, lunar calendar, tide, or whatever. Then I get the message on the answering machine " Hello ...reminder call... "Sev AIR in" has a cardiology appointment.." clunk goes my heart into my guts. Oh yeah my kid still has that jacked up heart. So as I check on my kids for the umpthteen time tonight I am thankful for everyday of memories we have been able to make as a family. Three years I have been given to see his personality form, hear his voice, get his hugs and kisses. Three years of being the little brother, wrestling, teasing, singing, and dancing. Three years ago I didn't know if any of this would ever happen. I am so thankful!